In a Room Full of People

For years, I have always walked in your orbit. But our paths never crossed before. Although I almost pass your house every day. But now, you are standing in front of me, in a room full of people. And I am 1000000% sure, you already hear my beating heart.

Funny how the butterfly effect brings us together. That day, on a rainy day, I decided to join your playground. A place where your heart belongs. A place where we spend almost all our time together.

Months went by, and we never met. I didn't even know your existence in this world. I am always alone, doing my things, trying to keep my sanity.

One day, I heard people talk about you. My curiosity soared. Who are you? Why do they talk about you? How amazing you are, in your place, where people look up to you?

So that day, I decided I would come by and see you in person.

When my feet stepped in, I almost choked myself. My brain stops functioning. My sanity flies away. My heart drops a few feet.

My brain screams, "I love you!"

That day, in a room full of people, the world stopped rotating. Because you are the center of my universe, shaking my whole dimension. Knock down everything I know or believe before.

I am grateful because I didn't faint. But I know for sure how huge your power over me. You reigned over my consciousness, gripping my soul.

I try to step back. I always look down. Trying to be respectful and worship you in silence. Trying my best and hardest not to catch your attention.

Months went by, and I think I am winning. You never talk to me. You never look at me. My breath feels lighter.

But one day I found out you followed me. I am screaming, holding on to my dear life through my phone screen. 

I failed. I cannot hold myself together. I start talking to you. Found a new way to connect with you. Discover the cheat code to spend more time with you.

And then.... my days are full of your smile. Your laugh. Your voice. Your presence. Your text. Your emojis. Your genuine care. Your touch. Your sweat. Your scent. 

I follow you like an ugly duck following her mother. But I try.... I always try.... not to look at you too long. Because I'm afraid you will find something in my eyes. Something we can't have, we shouldn't have.

Every day, I'm trying to save my life from your spell. 

You know, when you drive me home? I can't even look to the side. I am so afraid I will pass out, screaming "I love you", or doing anything stupid, and make you terrified.

I always, always, always try my best to shrink myself so I can't be seen by you.

But you always appear with a tender heart and a warm gaze. So here I am; I couldn't help but write you a love letter for 5 days in a row.

In a room full of people, you will always mesmerize me. You are my dear angel. 

Are you waiting for your gift? I hope you enjoy my presence. Thank you for being my new mission in life: makes you happy.

Baby, but do you know I have loved you for the past 1.5 years?