The Most

I will rank everyone I have ever loved in my life, from the one I love the most to the least. I know it sounds diabolical and oversharing, but I don’t give a F. HAHA.

However, please understand that whoever I rank as number one is not someone I still love. I'm just an appreciative person.

I know some of my exes have wives and they read my blog. Please understand that I do not have feelings for your husband. We just have a history.

Number one, the person I loved the most, is the Canadian guy. I was so happy with him because I could just be myself. We had great banter. I was attracted to him in every way possible.

He is clean, smart, passionate about his job, good with kids, and cheerful. Most importantly, he understands me and can empathize.

But our relationship ended because of his personal matters. Months ago, he texted me and said sorry about how things ended. I replied, “Okay, cool.”

Number two is my ex-fiancé. Everyone now knows this fact. I mean, EVERYONE. He treated me like a queen. He was almost perfect.

But things went downhill after four years together. We stayed together for three more years. I got angry because he didn’t marry me. I lost my patience.

We still saw each other for two more years. So in total, I spent almost nine years with him. He married the love of his life in mid-2024. His wife knows about my existence and is stalking me.

Number three is Mr. Whatsit. He always helps me, whether I need money, fainted, had an accident, broke up with other men, lost clients, almost took my life, et cetera. He almost always solves all my problems.

Until this day, people think that I am still with him. I don’t know how to explain that we are not together anymore, so I let people think whatever they want.

Number four is my pretty lady. I don’t know why I love her; it was love at first sight. I know she knows that I love her. I can’t say too much because I don’t want people to know who she is.

We are incompatible. I can’t talk to her about a lot of things.

I still have a lot of ex-boyfriends and stories to tell. But I'm already sleepy and tired. So let me just sleep and end this story.